miercuri, 26 iunie 2013
People and demons
In my opinion , people are the most complicated beings . Or maybe we complicate things . We have such complex characters that I don't think we'll ever be able to understand each other .
Also , I don't think 2 people can live with each other and in the end say 'yess , I haven't doubt him(her) a moment ' . We are so different that it destroys the connection between us . I sincerely admire people who can get through these differences .
We spend so much time fighting our demons for the sake of the people around us that we find ourselves losing time we'll never get back . I keep asking myself , is it worth it ? Is it worth fighting your demons just to live with someone ? Two people can't be the same , have the same character , principles and so on . And these things tear us apart .
Now you'll tell me that if you really want someone in your life , you'll accept him the way he is . Well , I think that acceptance has a limit . In a relationship between two people , there will always be that one of them who will sacrifice more for the sake of the other one , either if it's just a friendship or a love relationship . I've never seen two balanced people . Like , two people who give up at the same number of things . For example : "I quit smoking , you quit drinking" , "I quit fast-food , you quit smoking" , "I quit acting to spend time with you , you quit playing video games " , "I stop talking to that person you hate , you stop talking to this person I hate " , and so on . If any of you have this kind of balanced relationship , then you just gained all my respect . It's pretty impossible for me to believe that this kind of relationships do exist . Like I said , we are too different to live with each other . And NO , you cannot ignore those differences . Even if you try , at one point they will stab you in your back .
Some people don't even accept their own demons and expect from you to accept them . Maybe if we'd stop lying ouselves we'd be a step closer to the ability of sharing our life with other people .
I repetedly and obsessively listen to this song , 'Demons' by Imagine Dragons . The way he says ' I wanna hide the truth , I wanna shelter you but with the beast inside there's nowhere we can hide ' . Somehow , when I listen to that song , everything around me vanishes . It's just me and the song . Nothing matters anymore .
At one point he says ' Look into my eyes , that's where my demons hide ' . We all have demons , even if we accept them or not . Take a moment to look in the mirror and analyze yourself . What you see ? What I'm trying to say is to stop lying to yourself . When you break the connection between you and someone , it's not entirely their fault. Guilt might actually be the only thing in the world we are equal at . It's never going to be only his or only your fault .