You know that moment when you hate someone so much that you are capable of destroying yourself just to take them down with you ?
When you start hating something/someone you become vulnerable . Why ? Because when you hate someone you can’t hide it . You become a hater and those you hate become your weaknesses. Once that people know at least one of your weaknesses , they can use them against you and eventually they will destroy you . I think that you start hating someone when you're insecure , when you don't have self-confidence .
Personally , I can say I’m in a dark place right now (that’s probably why I’m writing about hate , taking in consideration that I usually write about positive things ) . I received a lot of information and I guess it’s just too much , I got confused . The good thing is that I know I’m ‘in a dark place’ , I know my weaknesses , I know what I have to change about myself . The bad thing is that I can’t help it , I’m not going to change myself . The worst is that sometimes I like it .On the other hand , hate makes you ambitious . When you hate someone , you’re like in a competition with them and this can actually be good for you .
The worst thing is that the difference between hating someone and getting obsessed with them is a second . A little spark can start a fire , you have to be careful .
I don’t know if it’s just me but when I hate someone and I find a way to hurt them , I feel untouchable . I know that if I want something , I will get it no matter what . There’s always a better way than hurting someone , even if you hate that person , but sometimes bad feels so good .
“ Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you’ll always be my hero , even though you’ve lost your mind
So maybe I’m a masochist
I tried to run but I don’t wanna ever leave
‘Till the walls are going up in smoke with all our memories “
I think that just knowing that you can destroy someone's life makes you feel untouchable . But what if after ruining one’s life you start having regrets ? What if all that turns against you ? I , personally , believe in karma . I believe that as you give , so will you get . It’s just that being untouchable feels so good .
Personally , I never thought about this but .. if you had to choose between regreting that you ruined one's life or not feeling .. untouchable .. ever again , what would choose and why ?
Truth to be told , we need to feel untouchable . This might sound crazy but we are born with this crazy instinct to kill and I think that feeling untouchable is the only thing that keeps us from .. killing .